Love Live Life...Then I'm Dead.

Well, basically there are a lot of thoughts going through my head at the moment. I'm so confused about a lot of the aspects of my life. My grades, my parents, cheerleading, and especially KYLE. I cannot tell you how lost I feel right now. The scary part is, I don't even know why. So anyways, I know you know how much I love Kyle. I truly do. With all of my heart and unconditionally. I have no clue what I would do if I lost him. He is my everything but with each day that passes, it gets harder and harder for me to deal with him being in North Carolina. I just found out today that I will hardly get to see him at all anymore because he got a job up there and he's going to have to work on the weekends. The worst part was that he was extremely mean about it when I asked him the details. It's just so hard knowing how in love we are and knowing that we'll hardly have anytime together at all.

Love is such a tricky emotion and I'm getting to where I hate it. Why can't I just not be so attached? I'll never understand what that boy has done to me. It's like I can't go 2 seconds without thinking about him. I don't know how I'm going to handle not being able to see him. He's seriously my other half and without him, I really don't know how to function. I miss him every second we're not together. If I don't marry that boy, I don't know who I'll marry because there is NO ONE else out there for me but him. Just the fact of me dating someone else makes me sick to my stomach. I need him. He makes me happier than I ever thought possible. He gives me this feeling of completion and without him, I'm just half a person.

Okay, I'm going on too much about this. I always think things are going to be worse than they actually are. Let's just hope it's like that this time too.

Peace.